Wednesday, June 10, 2015

#200 and Life inside my Womb

I'll be honest and say that while I'm sleepy and crampy and feeling quite blah, I wanted to come on and say that this is my 200th blog post. So, that's pretty cool.
What's not that cool is how the past few days have gone. Starting on Saturday. Friday was pretty great.

On Friday, I had a doctors appointment where he was able to hear the heartbeat with the handheld dopplar. I've been handing morning evening sickness, back/muscle aches, and intense exhaustion. I slept for 16 hours on Friday. Bed at 8:30, work for 2 hours at 3:30, and then back to sleep until 2pm on Saturday afternoon, which I think broke any other record I've held these past 28 years.

Saturday evening though, I found myself in a deep "death rattle/whooping" cough, trying to dislodge some of my congestion. And, a half hour later, I went to the restroom found more blood that I'm happy with.

Of course, I know the coughing probably caused it (and it has subsided) but I hate the fact that it's coupled with persistent abdominal cramps (that I keep hearing are my womb basically having growing pains). Since I will be heading in this afternoon for our high-risk doctor and NT scan appointment, I'll be able to ask all sorts of fun questions. And I'm sure, hear a lot about how my blood thinners are affecting things "down there".
Talking with the women at church helped, who reminded me that while I might not necessarily look pregnant or feel like I need to slow down, I do. To be kind and gentle with my body, as it's learning how to care for and carry around a whole other person. To go slow, and pay attention to how I am feeling. I imagine my uterus, while being designed to do this and knowing how to handle the growing baby, is also freaking out that it won't stop growing. I mean, I am astonished how it in these weeks just keeps doubling in size every week. If I were my uterus, I would definitely be a bit overwhelmed.

Praying for a 11.5 week sized baby, who wiggles around the screen. Also, for the NT scan to have all the good results to show that the baby won't have to suffer with Downs Syndrome or pass away early with any of the trisomy disorders. These things aren't in my hands, but I can't help being a little anxious to see a little heartbeat and then also, for the tests to go well.

So tell me...
Have you ever dealt with any of these fears?
Did you find it hard to slow down and "be kind to yourself"?

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14 comments:

  1. Yay for hearing the heartbeat with the Doppler! I'm sorry you have been feeling so bad. At least it's a reminder good things are happening right? Praying your 2nd trimester will be easier!

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    1. Yes, yay! And, as of yet, second trimester is going swimmingly, and nausea has subsided!

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  2. and congrats on the 200th post - praying for you :D

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  3. Wow! Congrats on your 200th post!! Prayers on your journey through pregnancy!! The prize at the end is SO worth the struggle now :)

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    1. I'm past the nausea finally (it seems...) and looking forward to that prize :)

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  4. Congrats on your 200th post!! That is quite a milestone!! And best of luck with everything baby related! I will definitely be thinking of you!!

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  5. I'll pray for you. God knits this baby in your womb (Psalm 139), but yes, pregnancy can feel less than marvellous.

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    1. It's a miracle how we were created, and whenever I feel 'less than marvellous' (lol) I think of what is being formed at that moment making me feel that way. Thanks for the prayers :)

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  6. I am so happy for you and your baby. The heart beating sound is such a precious sound to a momma's ears. Take it easy and relax and enjoy your pregnancy. God has everything in His strong hands. Remember He already knows your baby and loves him or her very much.

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    1. Thanks Tammi, and I'm loving the knowledge of what is happening, and who is allowing it to take place inside me. Such a continual encouragement!

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  7. Praying for your, Farin! I enjoy being on this journey with you. Life growing is so precious, and what it does to our bodies…also precious and not-so-precious, but it's such a privilege to grow life. Loved this line: "If I were my uterus, I would definitely be a bit overwhelmed." Please know you are prayed for, and please keep us updated. Blessings from #EspressosOfFaith!

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    1. It's a gift to 'grow life'. I've kept that in mind whenever times were less enjoyable, and while feeling sick. Thanks for stopping by and for your continued prayers :)

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